[She goes quiet a minute, tracing idle circles with her fingertips against her shins.]
It puts distance into it. You start to forget it, a little bit — just around the edges. The details that make it so real. You still remember the big picture, just not with the same...clarity.
[She sighs.]
I only meant to take enough of your color that it wouldn't be so sharp. That it would dull enough that you could deal with it. I didn't mean to take so much of it, that was the part where I really fucked up.
[And it's not visible, but that's the moment, right then, when something fractures and she can't put her finger on what it is, only that she feels it splinter inside her; it's the reason that her eyes go hot and fill with tears as she looks up at the window once again, and it's the reason her voice comes out thin and wobbling and a pitch above where it usually sits, when she finds her words again.]
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[She goes quiet a minute, tracing idle circles with her fingertips against her shins.]
It puts distance into it. You start to forget it, a little bit — just around the edges. The details that make it so real. You still remember the big picture, just not with the same...clarity.
[She sighs.]
I only meant to take enough of your color that it wouldn't be so sharp. That it would dull enough that you could deal with it. I didn't mean to take so much of it, that was the part where I really fucked up.
[And it's not visible, but that's the moment, right then, when something fractures and she can't put her finger on what it is, only that she feels it splinter inside her; it's the reason that her eyes go hot and fill with tears as she looks up at the window once again, and it's the reason her voice comes out thin and wobbling and a pitch above where it usually sits, when she finds her words again.]
I really fucked you up, I'm so sorry —